Wednesday, August 30
WE CAME HERE TO GET AWAY FROM YOU Port Townsend, Washington Downhill, a skeleton of an orca suspended: a female beached; belly full, at that time, of seal and fish; the seal and fish full, at that time of poison. The volunteer, white bob, soft face, knew too the desire to see a body—its echoes—suspended. Hope, the name given to a dead whale once located by clicks and whistles in echo in inlet in open sea. The volunteer tells me she visited the Smithsonian Museum of African American History—says, The saddest part, to me, the Emmett Till—do you know him?—exhibit. The whale, killer, weakened by a scaffold of old poison: DDT, PCBs, which no prey can process but holds in its fat its tissues its soft parts. See her Southern scaffold: Mississippi, Alabama, Georgia. See, I hadn’t thought to think of him here, under the reconstructed skeleton I had come to see, and once seen, to mourn. She wanted to stand over his bones, his grave on her bucket list. She pushed into me her desire, the sound surfacing what had, long ago, leached into my softest parts. I wanted to hold her shoulders, vomit into her mouth this water full of dead or dying, to fill her with a little knowing, change her, heavy her, let the knowing wash her into the Salish at low tide, past driftwood and eel grass, hope a warning at her back. (Donika Kelly)