Thursday, September 7
DOOR “Not knowing when the dawn may come, I open every door.” —Emily Dickinson Every coffin starts with a door. Every incinerator, too. But before I cross that final threshold, end up a hotel for worms, or scattered, like wedding petals, into the sea, my new bride, greet with me, all the doors eager to let us in the electric slide of your local grocery store, welcome. the glass door of your favorite hole-in-the-wall deli and their wreath of jingle bells that chimes with every entrance, welcome. welcome, actual hole in the wall in my bathroom, small portal to nowhere. welcome, warm ka-chunk of the dryer. the clouds opening themselves to let in the rain. welcome, rain. the closet door you’ve hid behind finally off its hinges, welcome. the acceptance letter that gave you permission to walk out of the town you were raised in and never look back, welcome. the useless keyhole–door within a door–and the light it smuggles for your eye the wet gate you were pulled from, small and screaming, welcome. the koi fish circling in the pond, the gasping halo of their mouths, like the one you made when you were finally old enough to blow out your candles in a single breath, your single breath an escape hatch for all your wishes, welcome. I kiss you and you say, come in, I secret knock a stone across the lake and the water accepts it like communion. the bullet that may one day coax moonlight through a door it carves in my body is— no, shut that metaphor. we’re not there yet. the split egg on the skillet, the window open for the summer breeze, the first time you heard your favorite song pry into you like a secret. Meg says the doors are everywhere if you look for them, and they are. (Jonny Teklit)